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I’m Here

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I’m Here

I’m writing this on my phone as I sit on a rock in the Rockefeller Preserves with the most beautiful view of the sunset.

I suppose it’s been a while since my last blog. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs and I can’t help but feel guilty every time I feel down. How is it that I’ve “beaten/survived/lived through” cancer twice already, I’ve been done with treatment for a little over exactly a year now, and yet I’ve cried how many times today? Over what? I don’t even know and I think that might be the worst part. Helllooooo I’m aliveeeee, so what’s the issue?

 

I’m pursuing my dreams

My mind: not fast enough


I’m alive

My mind: and not living enough


I create music from my heart

My mind: not good enough


I have this whole beautiful world in front of me

My mind: that you can’t afford to travel cuz of medical bills and student loans

 

I have a life full love

My mind: but what is love

 

And so I write. I write songs, I write journal entries, and a lot of them go unseen and unheard- that’s why there is a huge time gap since my last blog entry.

I have this voice in my head that constantly tells me I’m not good enough and that nothing I do will ever be.

So I meditate. I exercise. I read. I try to detach myself from my mind. I try to be present.

I just finished reading The Alchemist and I’m currently reading The Power Of Now to try and shift my perspective and just the way I think in general.

I’m not sure what’s going on with me, but here I am being open like I promised I would be.

I’m here

🕊🥀

My View

My View

xox

~Bianca Muñiz

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Reconstruction

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Reconstruction

I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted a blog, and that’s a good thing! I’ve been out living life post-cancer! Now, as most of you know, October is my favorite month of the year! Before the breast cancer diagnosis, it was my favorite part of the year because of my birthday, Halloween, and the beautiful leaves changing from green to beautiful reds and golds. After my diagnosis, it’s STILL my favorite month of the year, but now October has a new meaning for me on top of all that.

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Clarity

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Clarity

It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog post.

I started writing multiple times, and I have so many pages of random notes and thoughts that I will probably make into a special piece at some point, but in the meantime I have some thoughts on my mind today.

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The Switch

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The Switch

A lot has happened since my last blog post, and I just wasn’t ready to write about it yet. I like to feel inspired, whether it’s writing music, or my blog. The last time I wrote was on November 21st and it was about my anxiety pre-surgery.

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