I am having my next surgery in a couple of weeks (December 14th) and the anxiety is real.It’s been a while since my last blog post, and that’s because so much has been going on.
I went on my first international tour with my band in Montreal, I started recording my first full-length album, I turned 23 on October 13th and I was invited to sing in Arizona at the Make a Wish Of America conference. I’ve received so many blessings and have been going forth and living my life to the fullest. However, sometimes the anxiety can creep in. I try my best to remain positive but it’s not always that easy.
This next surgery is “the switch.” I am finally getting rid of these expanders and getting my implants. This means I am one step closer to being done with all of this! Now, I have received some comments about how it’s “just aesthetics,” but it’s not. Please don’t ever say that to a Breast Cancer patient who has to undergo a double mastectomy and reconstruction. We didn’t choose to get cancer, and we definitely didn’t choose to have to have our chest cut open and reconstructed. It’s not a kind thing to say and we already have enough insecurities running through our mind, we don’t need that as well. Unfortunately, this is a common thing that Breast Cancer patients hear.
Today is one of those days where my mind starts to get the best of me. I don’t feel too great today and my anxiety started to creep in. So today I stayed in bed, watched Netflix, and ordered some healthy food on seamless. Today I am bathing myself in self love because I deserve it. When I start to feel this way, I tell myself “it’s only temporary.” The way I’m feeling right now is not going to last forever.
This upcoming Friday is my 7th treatment of Herceptin and Perjeta. I’m almost done and I feel so incredibly thankful to everyone who has supported me through all of this. My family and my friends have been my rock and I love you all so much.
Thank you to Mc and Patty who have both started gofundmes for me and to everyone who has contributed. It has truly helped so much.
And this is the latest music video and single if you'd like to watch <3